Posted by Dinah on December 15, 2001, at 19:46:22
In reply to Re: So sad. » Dinah, posted by Mair on December 15, 2001, at 18:12:02
Thanks Mair,
I did see my therapist and it made matters worse. I tried to suggest procedural changes and he was unwilling even to look at his schedule before seeing me so that he could give me a definite time at the beginning of the session without my having to wait like a helpless child as he figured out when he would be available. He was angry with me and asked that really stupid question "Why are you choosing to upset yourself and make yourself miserable."
I went home and cut more badly than usual for me -used a razor blade. Now I feel really ashamed.
My next appt is Fri. evening and I am afraid that if it goes badly I will have a horrific Christmas. I am barely holding it together today with an extra dose of Klonopin, and as that wears off my skin is starting to burn again. I've hardly been able to eat since this all started.
My son is an adorable five year old and I really don't want to mess up Christmas for him.
Thanks for listening.
Dinah
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