Posted by Greg A. on December 7, 2001, at 15:29:41
In reply to Re: Still in Canada » Greg A., posted by Lini on December 7, 2001, at 10:00:56
Lini,
Wish I had a sure fire recipe for avoiding destructive behaviour. My thought about trying to accomplish one positive thing . . . it helps a bit.
One thing I hate when switching meds is the way my doc 'sentences' me to several weeks of misery until the new one kicks in. Sometimes I think they figure you'll fill the prescr., take one pill, and be well on the road to recovery, Instead you go home and sink deeper into misery. That brings on drinking, or eating, or sleeping, or whatever we do to dull the pain. Finally, one day (if the med works) it dawns on you that you are noticing the sky is blue or whatever.
It's tough enough to kick addictions, whether they are behavioural, or substance, when you feel well, let alone when you feel terrible.
Last night for example, I did my one positive thing - I went to the gym. My whole body ached and it was hard to go through any sort of workout - but I did. Then I came home and drank 6 beer. Why?? I know that it's not good for me but I felt so wound up and anxious, I gave in rather easily. I should add that I have recently gone 3 months without drinking. It wasn't too much of a problem because my meds had me feeling pretty good. The past 2 weeks, somethng has gone wrong. What I am taking is no longer working or working as well. Bring on the destructive behaviour and the why bother attitude.
I told my pdoc once that the more failures with treatments I have, the less able I seem to be to cope with searching for another alternative. I swear I could become suicidal in a day. I know the routine cause I have been there before. My brain says 'I am not going to put up with this Greg A.
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