Posted by akc on December 6, 2001, at 15:12:43
Nothing seems to work for long. I'm still having quite a bit of trouble today. Some relief from my actions of last night, but as today wears on, the mind storm begins to brew again. Part of it is from work (more piled onto a very weary worker) -- part from wondering how I will behave at group therapy. I am wondering what I am getting out of being sick. This is one of my worse spells in years -- probably since I tried to take my life two years ago. I seem to be unwilling to do anything anyone else wants me to do -- no matter how logical, meaningful the suggestion. I seem to only want to do harmful things. Why do I choose misery? It puzzles me.
akc
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