Posted by Wendy B. on July 18, 2001, at 23:54:51
In reply to Re: Not fitting in: now it's my turn, posted by Anna Laura on July 17, 2001, at 5:39:39
> Don't you worry: i'm going to stay. Thanks for answering though. Thanks to Roo, AKC, NIkki, Glenn, everybody on this board.
> I think most of you all guys found my words misleading: i wasn't going to leave, i just wanted to express my feelings, kind of needed to get a feed-back about it. I did. So everything it's o.k.
> I love being on this board; i enjoy your company here even if i can't see anybody of you. Thanks again for your support.
> Roo: i'm glad i made you laugh!
>
> Anna Laura
Dear Anna Laura,
Sorry to be so late in responding, but you are a very wonderful presence on this board, and have had some marvelous insights and beautiful things to say, and express yourself so well... In other posts, you apologize for your writing because english isn't your native tongue, but your written english is better than the majority of americans. So no more apologies!
As for looks, I think we all picture each other as we read each others' thoughts and writing, and I did picture you with dark hair, but that's my problem, you're probably fair and from Milano, or something. Anyway, very educated and beautiful...And I know what it's like being 'different,' I think we all have days (or weeks, or months) of feeling like outsiders.
My mother's side of the family is Italian (her mother was from Roma, her father from the Abruzzi region); she was born in america. My brother and sister and I looked like the kids from Mars to the people in the area where we grew up, a farming region in NY state. We were dark-brown-haired, and in summer, we got very brown-skinned, too. Everyone around us in our town were white, protestant, blonde farmers... It really bothered me at times, and I'm an american... but I didn't fit in, in a lot of ways...
Plus, I think depression isolates us and keeps us wondering about what everyone's thinking of us. The other day my therapist and I both came to the conclusion that no one is looking at us as much as we think they are...! And certainly no one on this board is judging you, at least not harshly...Ciao, bella,
Wendy
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