Posted by mila on April 13, 2001, at 0:42:26
In reply to Re: -- phillybob and all , posted by Kingfish on April 11, 2001, at 16:06:39
dear kingfish,
i like everything about you. Right now i like this thread that you have started:)
i never quite think that i haven't been myself all these years. I tried it for some time after the depression lifted for the first time, and found that this attitude fills me with tears of regret, resentment, and grief. it weakens me, and sends me on yet another trip into another kind of sadness. I eventually found hte right word for what I got back: my innocence of perceptions. Self to me is a larger, more embracing notion, and it includes all of which i am capable of, including mysteries of depression. being myself in any condition makes me feel proud, getting back innocence of perception ( like in the fairy tale of a naked king, this boy who yells "the king is naked!!!", ability to see things as they are, and not through the thick filters of previous unhappy memories) makes me feel delighted.
mila
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