Posted by coral on October 15, 2000, at 8:20:01
In reply to Re: Walking On Eggshells:On Caroline Greg, Lei » Greg, posted by chdurie2 on October 12, 2000, at 11:16:32
To all,
First, I'd like to thank everyone who have shared their stories, struggles and triumphs. The courage is so wonderful to see and truly an inspiration. In the bad moments, I see myself, at 49, not having accomplished so many things I wanted to and think "What's the use?" Then, I read stories of people my age who are embracing the challenges with such grace, vitality and vigor that it truly helps me see that I'm ONLY 49 with the rest of my life ahead of me! Thank you.My sister, who has BPD, is openly hostile to my having been depressed w/anxiety/panic attacks. She considers it a weakness and gets absolutely vitriolic. So, I've not mentioned the second episode (thank God we live a couple of hundred miles apart). When depressed, I withdraw. My husband is a wonderful support and I keep him apprised of the progress, letting him know what can help and what will harm. He also is very honest with me and I rely on him as a observer to help me determine my progress. I'm bored to tears with "getting well" and am impatient and intolerant with myself if I don't consciously be kind to me. I celebrate the small victories - last night was the first night (during this second depressive episode) that I slept without Librium or Ambien. Back to the original question: for me, the depression/anxiety/panic is like having a broken leg. I know what I can and can't do in the various stages of recovery - with the cast and crutches, with a walking cast, etc., and it's my responsibility to be true to myself. Healing is my most important priority because if I don't, I'll wind up screwing up the rest of my life!
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