Posted by ksvt on October 10, 2000, at 8:18:11
In reply to Re: ksvt, posted by CarolAnn on October 9, 2000, at 21:49:03
> I'm curious about your "negative feelings that are not verbal". I think I know what you mean, but not sure. Is it something like panic attacks? Or something more subtle? I hate asking you to describe the feelings, I don't know how you could, since they're non-verbal.
> When I was a little girl, I would sometimes get a sort of 'attack'(too strong a word) of some weird feeling that would wash over me, and feel very unpleasant, but have no cause or real description. To myself I would call it "my embarassed feeling", although it wasn't really embarassment. I remember this happening as young as six, but can't pinpoint when it stopped happening. The weird thing is that it started up again when I was pregnant. I guess, if I had to use words, I would describe the feeling as a mild, non-physical(I know a lot of people flush, shake, and/or have rapid heart beat), panic attack. It's a very 'inward' thing, no one would ever sense anything wrong, except I get a little quiet. Does this sound familiar? I'd love to know if there's a name or diagnosis for it. Oh well, take care! CarolAnnCarolAnn - I sometimes get unspecified anxious feelings, but that's not really what I was talking about. What I have in mind are very negative generalized feelings about myself that are not preceded by a cognitive negative thought or self talk. This is definitely going to sound over simplistic, but I'm trying to distinguish this from the progression of depressive thinking that has one reacting to say a work mistake with a thought progression of "gee, I really screwed that up - I'm really not very good at this - I'm really not very good at anything." I go through that kind of thinking at times although I've gotten better at disrupting the progression before it things get too negative. What I have a tougher time dealing with are occasional very negative and very subjective feelings that sort of wash over me. It's the subjectivity of disliking someone for no discernable or logical reason only you're the someone. I've been thinking about this some lately because I'm working with a therapist who frequently takes a cognitive approach. It's been hard for us to address the feelings I'm talking about because they do seem so subjective and there doesn't seem to be a thought trigger. I don't know if this makes sense to you. I'd love your feedback. ksvt
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