Posted by Cindy W on September 2, 2000, at 7:05:06
My Mother was just diagnosed tonight with stage 4 lung cancer with a metastasis to her spinal cord. Don't know yet if they will give her radiation, chemo, or no treatment. She is in a hospital 5-6 hours away. Will probably go see her this weekend. I've been putting it off because I'm afraid I'll total my car (like I did when my Dad had his quadruple bypass) and because I don't know what to say or do...talked to her on the phone, and she seems in denial and drugged (on a morphine drip). Don't know what to say to her or to my Father. We've always had a distance between us, emotionally, that I don't kow how to bridge. I feel so alone, lost, lonely, sorry, sad, ashamed. My depression and OCD are way out of control; see my pdoc in l8 days. Can't get a pet sitter and if I could, couldn't let them in my house (it's so cluttered and hard to walk through). Is there an instruction manual on life?--Cindy W
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