Posted by Estella on September 2, 2006, at 11:42:15
In reply to yeah » Estella, posted by wildcardII on September 2, 2006, at 6:43:15
abberant. sexually abberant, not abhorrent. lol. abberant is my word for the week and i messed it up the first time i got to use it lol.
i try and reject a lot of the female stereotype. i mean... i shave. but i don't wear make up or dresses or skirts i tend to wear jeans and t shirts and stuff. i don't think i'll ever change on that score. i don't own many pairs of shoes. i've never had a handbag. i've got this deuter backpack that i like very much though :-) i don't know... i just... can't get into the spirit of it or something. whats it for? i don't know. i don't mind being female except for the stereotype thing. i think often women think they are overweight and they aren't overweight. women tend to aim for something that is actually unhealthy. i don't know...
but yeah. personality goes a long way. and a great smile can go a long way too. i met this lady from scotland and she most certainly had a solid build. she had wonderful character and an amazing smile. amazing smile. she was amazingly attractive but not at all in the traditional sense. you could see people seek her out in bars because she looked friendly and approachable and intelligent.
i don't know.
i wonder whether society will change?
probably too much money in the make up and fashion industry and fat free foods loaded with sugar for change to occur anytime soon.
lol.
the things we think we have to do to be...
normal
or socially acceptable
or something.appearances are hard. i reject the whole thing... but yeah sometimes i feel very self conscious indeed walking into a cocktail bar with my jeans and hoodie. i feel uncomfortable and out of place. but i look at the pretty girl over in the corner dressed to the nines with layers of carefully applied make up and manicured nails... and i see her laugh nervously... and i feel a little sorry... i feel a little sorry for her. i don't know what i'm trying to say / what i'm saying...
but i think... do we want to be taken seriously or what? and i guess the image is... both. but i don't know... there is something wrong.
random ramblings at 2am.
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