Posted by wildcardII on July 13, 2006, at 22:39:28
my stepsister whom my *real* father adopted got married a week and 1/2 ago and my brother felt obligated to go. i wouldn't have even if i weren't at 42 wks pregnant. anyway, my brothers wife called me today and talked about the trip but when she brought up the father/daughter dance my heart just broke. she said that my brother finally understood why i felt so sh*t on and hurt by our father and i couldn't even reply. 29 years old, knowing that he will never love or want me like he does them and i still feel like a lost little kid...it just hurts because i know i'll never have that and that he doesn't care. how he could turn his back on us and just walk away while we endured hell, little kids, HIS little kids but he never looked back. i know i have to let it go and i always think i have until something pops up and i feel all the pain and abandonment that he caused...
just needed to cry and let it out...........i often wonder why two people like my parents were even able to conceive. they don't deserve us.
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