Posted by honeybee on June 11, 2006, at 12:39:10
In reply to Re: (((llrrrpp) » honeybee, posted by llrrrpp on June 10, 2006, at 17:20:13
Yes, yes, and *yes* (she writes emphatically!). I agree with you, ll, it's difficult being depressed, and maybe even more difficult being married to someone who's depressed. It's been a real strain for my husband and I, especially because we're broke (he's working on his Ph.D. and we don't have much of an income). Dealing with the stress of figuring out my depression would be one thing; dealing with all the added stressors on top of that is another.
I took a trip in late May for two weeks to visit my parents. That was a start to give him a reprieve. And, then, doingthis field work that he's going to do for a month will get him out of his head and out of our life for a bit. Another reprieve. I care about him so much that it makes it difficult sometimes to figure whether or not my being around is worth it or not. You know how you sometimes want to protect those who you're closest to? When you're the problem, what do you do? (Especially when, as you've written in a previous post, depressed people need hugs!).
I am seeing a therapist now who I haven't figured out quite yet and don't know if I like. My brother is a therapist, as well, so there are some useful things the two of us talk about as far as making some practical changes in my life to mitigate the effects of the depression. It would be a kinder, gentler world, if these same things also improved my depression. Alas, they do not. But they probably do improve the lives of those around me, and mitigate the effects of my depression on them.
Anyway, one of the best things to note, though, is that the Cymbalta is working for you already and that, by the next time you see your husband, I would be that you're raring at 100%. Now *that* will be a nice surprise. Won't it?
xo, hb
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