Posted by llrrrpp on June 10, 2006, at 10:41:42
I already feel sad. He's going to leave in less than an hour. Gone for 25 days. This is going to be really tough. In the past, I was able to turn off my feelings when we parted. Now, I'm not turning off my feelings. T has helped me figure out that the feelings are there for a reason. To bottle them up is toxic. They ferment and become a poisonous sludge. Now. The feelings are there. My heart aches. I can't look at him.
I miss his scent, and his ears, and his voice, and his arms, and being close to him, and having him take care of me, and having him ask me ridiculous questions, having him tease me and grab my butt at inopportune moments, and his awful taste in movies, and his meticulous (anal-retentive?) approach to housework and vacation planning.
Woe is me. I'm going to have to be really really really strong this time to avoid crisis. I already feel the darkness coming. My voice gets smaller and smaller. My heart hurts.
but still. 'Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.
take care of me
(((me)))
poster:llrrrpp
thread:655209
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