Posted by wildflower44 on March 9, 2006, at 23:48:23
I thrive on getting positive male attention. It is like heroin to me. It is such an adrenaline rush and high. I love for men to admire me, want to talk with me, flirt with me, and to say positive things about me. I love the attention. It is like oxygen. Magic. When I have men to flirt and chat with, and men who are admiring me, I'm happy and alive. I'm on. When I don't have that in my life I am depressed and feel like I have nothing to live for. Ya, I get suicidal. I don't have female friends really. I mean, I can chat with a female for a few minutes, but I usually feel anxious and feel like she doesn't really want to be talking with me. I am so pathetic. I don't understand what is wrong with me. I am 44 years old. I am somewhat attractive (okay, I'm beautiful without make up, I hate admitting that). I have been this way since a teenager. Friends have told me: you need to get a hobby. You need to have something else in your life besides men. I have taken up drawing, watercoloring, journal writing, exercise, gardening, home repairs... NOTHING feels as good or is as satisfying and stimulating as having a man around.
I feel hopeless. It is driving me crazy. What is wrong with me?
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