Posted by sm100378 on March 9, 2006, at 19:04:47
In reply to FEELING SOOO SAD., posted by sm100378 on March 9, 2006, at 16:37:03
Just to fill in the edges.....
We had so much fun together. We would sleep over often, snuggle and watch movies and sopranos dvds, american idol, and lots of touching moments. She said my name and then said if we end up living with each other, you have to put the lid suctioned to the bowl of the tupperware, because I only put it on, not on with a burp. That really touched me.
She would sit on the seat in the fitting room and tell me what looks good. Over time the last two months, I have accumulated a new wardrobe and have gotten rid of older clothing that was too big so her face is all over my room.
I caved in yesterday and emailed her "I miss you" but she did not respond. I told my therapist it is like someone took a memory chip out of her head because this was so instant, like a snap. 11 days ago we had a couples massage at a local spa and we held hands in the room before and just stared into each others eyes. We had a nice lunch before with good conversation and everthing was perfect. Wednesday I wasnt intending on sleeping over but when I walked downstairs (she was doing laundry), she said "no, dont go....please dont go". I felt so in love with her when she said that, and being around her as much as we have.
It was last week she wanted to take a trip to CA and MA. I had dinner at her parents house less than two weeks ago with family friends of her parents and she warned me about getting questioned......It was great.
Now I am all alone. I feel miserable. I saw my therapist twice this week. She is so wonderful and great to be around when she is healthy, but she also has a very dark side, cold side....a side that I dont know that she realizes. She is also a sex addict and drinks alot. She doesnt really dabble with relationships, only casual encounters. She told me it was going well for her. I asked when the sudden change on the phone and she said that is not important. I have no facts as to what happened. She says she doesnt see us together in 2, 4 months, 1 year.....She said this has been in the front of her head and never left and that she should have known better this wouldnt have worked. I cant BELIEVE she said this because the last two months were so wonderful....and her showing affection, and then suddenly it is all over.I dont even know what to do at this point.
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