Posted by Susan47 on August 29, 2005, at 12:11:07
In reply to Re: Relationship with Myself .. May Trigger, Sex, posted by sunny10 on August 29, 2005, at 8:13:46
I don't have the Rabbit, yet. I just have the starter model, looks like a penis but doesn't feel like one. The nice thing is though the longer it runs the warmer it gets, the heat of the motor I guess ... but nothing like the Real Thing. Which I actually Had, last night, with the ex-, omigod can you believe it? We've been together maybe half a dozen times in the 18 mos. since separation, and it was fun but Nothing Like Last Night. Omigod. I was a bloody vixen, V-i-x-e-n and he was.. well, he's been working out, and losing weight (FINALLY, Why Do They Always Do This After It's Over? i'm guilty, too, though .. let myself go quite a bit from the Norm ...) but last night in the candlelight and the softness of my room .. we both reached heights and I actually Actually this gets really explicit but LOVED that number we used to joke about when we were younger ... and the sounds a man can make when he's being.. pleasured .. well, let's say I don't think well.. I haven't had Sex Like That since I was eighteen.
It was awesome.
We're going to be sex buddies till we die, we both decided. But that's all. Because I don't love him and he doesn't love me. Not the right way, not the way that makes a marriage, or even a partnership. But I guess I can actually be Into this guy. Funny I was married to 'im for so many years and never appreciated what I was missing, now I can appreciate what I did miss when I didn't want him touching me, especially when pregnant, you know how your boobs gets, and you think, oh that's going to be great, I'm really going to enjoy that .. and then the hormones get in the #$%^&* way and ruin EVERYTHING. But some women are so lucky, they get to enjoy all those luscious changes, with their men who are so totally uninhibited and Into Them .. last night I allowed myself to be physically ravished, and I actually asked for it that way, and I Loved It.
I don't have to feel ashamed of that. I can love my body because it's beautiful not by everyone's definition, but by mine.
Whew.
Thanks guys.
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