Posted by Susan47 on August 26, 2005, at 23:58:08
In reply to Don't be sorry » Susan47, posted by Damos on August 24, 2005, at 17:19:30
I don't believe I'm looking for a man at all. In fact, if I never date another person ever again I'll be quite fine.
The men I've wanted to be intimate with in my life have been few and far between. I've had some lovely times when I was younger. Maybe I'll have some lovely ones when I'm older, maybe not.
Remembering and taking new joy in the good things and the pleasures I once had indulged in becomes easier as time goes on, though. And that's nice, that's lovely.
Right now, though, my job is to build my character.
I'm learning how to do that, I hope I don't lose enthusiasm for this project as well, as I seem to have done with so much of my life, so many things have come and gone .. I have a lot I want to say, I'm going to find a way to say it.
It may take years and perhaps I don't have that much time, but the process of working towards the goal I've secretly wanted since I was old enough to think and to have a dream of the future .. it's the work that's the joy; the journey holds all the pleasure and reward.
Solitude is not the end of love.
It's the beginning of the journey into myself.
I can do this, and I will do it.
I hope I go far enough.
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