I pretend to be asleep

Posted by AdaGrace on June 29, 2005, at 16:18:54

I do this to avoid any contact with my husband.
To avoid sex, conversation, etc.
I just can't deal with it anymore. It's why I often drink myself into a coma everynight. To avoid him.
And I wonder, do I dislike him because of him, or do I dislike him because I feel he is somehow keeping me from the life I think I want or deserve. Including the man I want. Funny to think of that after enduring almost 20 years, I finally realize the problem. I am simply not in love. I never was. And how do you tell someone you have slept next to for 20 years that you don't love them anymore?

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