Posted by Damos on June 26, 2005, at 20:59:30
In reply to I'm afraid of people, posted by alexandra_k on June 26, 2005, at 20:11:14
You in there Alex? Wanna come for a coffee or something, or just hang out?
I kinda know what you mean. You pretty much described my life too. If it wasn't for going to work I wouldn't see anyone or muc anything else except sit here like I am now. And like I said before now my coffee shop people have sold the business I don't feel rght there either.
You're absolutely right environment changes can make a huge difference. When I went to Western Australia a couple of years ago (running from my darkness). I was totally different in myself and how I interacted with he people in the little town I stayed in. Probably because all the other pressures were released for that week and I just let myself be.
I don't think you're anti-social partly because it's just another limiting label, but also because I just don't get that feeling from you. It's more like you're self-contained. It's also as you so, how you were forced to be for a long time. But like you I find it very difficult to share space with others (except puppy of course).
I'm nearly 41 and I still don't know what I'm supposed to do and have never had the slightest idea. And no you can't just go out and do it. It doesn't work that way. I can't explain the couple of good friends I have at work, cause I don't know how they happened. All I do know is that I had a good feeling about them right from the start.
It hurts when you're hurting. Wish I could just wrap you up in my arms and make it all better. You help me a lot you know, just by being you and talking to me and being my friend.
Wish I could be all the king's horses and all he king's men and put my friend Alex togeher again.
Love you dearly my friend. There will be someone for whom all you are is everything they could ever need and more.
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