Posted by Susan47 on June 21, 2005, at 22:09:59
you're 48 and a man twenty years younger (I think actually 24 years) wants to really have sex with you. But you don't really find him all that attractive. And in no circumstances would you ever choose him or anyone even remotely like him in any way, to be in the presence of for more than five minutes at a time. He actually gives you the creeps, a bit. But the way he looks at you is so fr*gging scary, he's part psycho and you kind of know it. And he's the building manager's son. And he has an apartment in the building. And no matter what, you can't help running into him sometimes. And you've started giving the cold shoulder, because you know he's a dirty little kid, really .. but one day you weaken and you talk to him, and you're both talking about this thing you have in common, which you wish you didn't, and you realize that but can't help yourself .. anyway, now he's excited about talking to you again, and he thinks he can still get into your pants, and that's scary because in the past you sometimes gave in to these guys, guys like this, the Yucks.
But now you're older, and you've been showing really good boundaries, lately, about what's good for you and what isn't. Well, some people might think that was funny, and they'd be right to laugh, but the fact is, you've been having dreams that indicate that's what is happening, and you've worked hard to change yourself in so many ways, from the inside out. Sometimes you let yourself down, but it's not so bad, not like it used to be. You're no longer harsh on others in the same way; you're so much softer now, so much more open and true. The true-ness of being yourself is being felt. It's like an angel, with wings and silver sparkles, flying high ... so high ... my wish, if wishes are real, is she never has to land.
poster:Susan47
thread:516873
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