Posted by Miss Honeychurch on April 14, 2005, at 15:12:16
When I was at my worst with depression and anxiety several years ago, I let 2 of my closest friends go - just completely stopped communicating with them, as I stopped with most people. Both of them tried valiantly to stay in touch, but I would have none of it. I hated myself and damned if I was going to be around others who didn't hate me as well.
Neither of these friends lives near me.
Now that I am back on an even keel and can honestly say that I love myself and respect myself, I miss these friends dearly. I miss the closeness, the humor, etc. I have friends now but they just aren't as close as these other 2.
So I would like to try to rekindle these friendships and I am really mortified at how I treated these 2 lovely people. I am very scared to get back in touch for fear of their reaction to me and fear that they have moved on in life and don't want any part of me.
I was not nasty to these 2 people. I just stopped all communication, full stop.
Any advice on how to break the ice? All I have are phone numbers, so I will be forced to call. I want to use humor to get back into their lives.
Or, is this even possible? Would you welcome back a friend who seemingly fell off the planet?
Thanks in advance for any advice/insight.
poster:Miss Honeychurch
thread:484220
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