Posted by 10derHeart on March 1, 2005, at 1:12:54
In reply to please help,i cant handle anymore, posted by jenn007 on February 28, 2005, at 23:33:06
Jenn007,
I'm glad you posted here. You were not rambling at all. You just sound like someone pushed close to the brink of her resources by all that life throws at us at once sometimes. I think your dr's appt. is an important step. I am not a professional, but have a lot of personal experience, and the words you use sound like you may well be depressed. And depending on how new of a mom you are (congrats, by the way!!) is post-partum (sp? I'm tired) a possibility? Being a nurse, you've likely thought of these things already. But sometimes we don't think to apply stuff to ourselves that we could see in others more quickly. Anothere thing Babble is good for - some perspective when we can't find ours :-)
And I have noticed some of the most devoted, wonderful, hard-working folks in the helping professions - especially docs and nurses - wait the longest before taking good care of themselves. Could that be you? Please do pursue help with your doctor. If it is depression, beleive me, you CAN feel better and it will not always be this hard. And maybe think more on asking your stepdad for any kind of help he can give (child care? a listening ear?..) - you said he was great, but you don't want to worry him. It sounds like he cares about you then, because you're sure he would worry, so maybe you could let him? I'll bet he could handle a bit of worry about you, because you're hurting and need him.
Thanks for all you do as an ER nurse. Emergency room people are some of my biggest heros. I imagine the stress can be enormous, though. I don't know your boyfriend, but pardon me if I say that kind of talk is just going to make things worse. I know that anxiety and depression can sometimes make us tell ourselves we're lazy or mean or whatever - doesn't mean it's real or true AT ALL, whether he says it or whatever. Okay, now I'm rambling.... Point is, with all you have to deal with, you're not feeling well or like yourself, you recognize it and are reaching out for help. That is good. Hope you post some more. As Damos said, there are so many caring people here with awesome ideas and endless patience and support. It might help a lot just to talk.
How old's the little one? Boy or girl?
Take care - 10derHeart
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