Posted by alexandra_k on February 11, 2005, at 15:21:38
Isn't it funny how something that has the power to make you feel so wonderful and happy also has the power to make you feel so disgusting and horrible.
If I could just avoid the whole thing
Circumvent it
I would
But you can't do that
Not in this body
Oversized
Hairy
Smelly
lumpy
I feel sick.I don't mind when someone views me as a sex object when I am in the mood. But sometimes it freaks me out. I feel sick and dirty and panicky.
When I was 14 I discovered guys will give you 'special treatment' if you let them do things. I thought 'I am not a kid anymore. This is what adult relationships are supposed to be about'. And those guys were adults. They did care for me. Like no body ever had. But why did they care for me?
It changes everything.
I wish it didn't exist.
I wish there could be love without it.
Why couldn't we be both sexes,
Why do we need two to reproduce?
Why do we even want to do that?
It isn't fair.Maybe it comes of how else they view you too.
If you are mostly a sex object
Or if they respect you as a person too.Sometimes I am sure I am only 7
This body feels all wrong.
poster:alexandra_k
thread:456360
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