Posted by alexandra_k on November 18, 2004, at 0:04:30
My current 'arrangement' (I won't dignify it by calling it a relationship). I AM NOT GOING TO SLEEP WITH HIM ANYMORE. I have been thinking about making this move for a while now (probably almost a year), but then... well... anyway, no more of that.
I am fairly liberal about morality, etc. Sometimes that means that I need to learn lessons the hard way, however. I do feel cheapened by sleeping with people who I don't want to have a relationship with. I needed time to come to realise that properly.
We are good mates. Have been friends for years. He will get over it soon enough. I think I need to work on this in therapy sooner or later though. Here's my embarrasing little secret: I can't feel anything for my peers, but give me someone 20 years older than me who is 'unobtainable' and then I am interested. Thats why I suppose I don't have proper relationships. It would never work. they have already raised a family etc. I am only 26. Sigh. I hope I sort it out before I die all lonely...
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