Posted by rskontos on October 2, 2014, at 17:20:06
In reply to Re: MIA but back now... » rskontos, posted by Twinleaf on October 2, 2014, at 17:07:55
> Hello! It's so nice to see your name again. I remember you as a very active contributor from several years ago, but (my memory is really letting me down here), I don't recall too much more than that. Can you give a brief update?
Yes I was quite active.....i had an abusive childhood and dissociated most of it and continued to do so because my husband and his parents have re-traumatized me. I went back to Graduate School to pursue another career and that is why I wasn't so active. Graduated with honors but right now I am at home not working because I have been very sick physically. Additionally my longtime pdoc who was also my t because he practiced true psychotherapy died suddenly. That of course threw me waaaaay off course...this happened right after I took a really difficult job that he encouraged me to take...between his death and the job it about did me in mentally and physically. The job was very triggering working with young children that had been quite abused and their families. So without his help in working through it all, he knew the job and its parameters. I guess maybe he thought I was stronger than I was. In any case, the panic attacks got worse and the worse I started dissociating at work ALL the time. I have a new therapist who is amazing. She has helped me in so many ways. I finally found a doctor, functional medicine, that was able to help me recover physically while the new T helps me with the dissociation. I tried several other docs but when they dx'd me DID I ran. Maybe I am maybe I am not, i would just rather work from where I am not the label of what I am. Does that make sense. Twinleaf I was thrilled to see you, and 10derheart, Dinah, Phillipa, and so many others I remembered from before....I am in a hard place with my marriage and my dissociation...but I am making progress. I entered therapy to recover my memories and begin to integrate myself. My T has expertise in dream therapy too and she is so different from Dr S who died but she did know him. My people in my city knew him because he was prominent although I did not know that.
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