Posted by stargazer2 on December 22, 2013, at 20:21:52
In reply to Re: Is there a point to life/Posters » stargazer2, posted by baseball55 on December 22, 2013, at 19:29:08
BB. Thank you for your heartfelt comments. I have tried suicide only once (following my divorce in 2010), followed by ECT(2011), which really messed up my mind. In 2 week, I'm going to be part of a research trial of TMS but only a few treatments which concerns me but at least its something.
If I was still married or had a family I believe my situation would be more tolerable. The deression drove my husband away...he felt I never loved him which was possible given my inability to show love or affection to him. I thought he would just love me for me after so many years, it was a total shock that he wanted out. Now I find myself alone with few friends and no purpose in life. That is my mantra..."I have no idea what I am supposed to be doing"..without a job or family, life has no purpose and I'm not well enough to work so I do some volunteering, walk my dog, and little else. It is a intolerable.
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