Posted by Lamdage22 on December 21, 2013, at 10:01:09
I feel so deeply out of touch.. I just cant make sense of life. I dont know if an antidepressant can fix this.
Every time something works for my depression i go outside of the clinic and come back with suicide thoughts. Am i sick of the clinic? Certainly. But im also sick of the life outside.
Am i damned to a lifetime of suicide thoughts. Why cant someone "brainwash" into having a good time in life.
Yeah i can try Parnate, but (i think) i will still rather be dead if im totally honest with myself. Maybe it is NOT a disease and thats exactly the reason why therapy cant make it go away?
Im a unfortunate existence.
Schizo-Affective, Socially anxious
700mg Seroquel
10 mg Zyprexa
1500mg Metformin
600mg NAC
4,8g EPA from Fishoil
2000mg Vitamin C
Thorne R. Multivitamin
Soon: Parnate at 30mg or 40mg
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