Posted by froyo on October 28, 2012, at 21:39:58
In reply to Re: Have you seen her again? How did it go?, posted by froyo on October 28, 2012, at 21:35:24
sorry, that didn't make much sense. This is a little clearer:
"That means that I know/have accepted that I'll have to continue with some sort of therapy beyond my 10 free sessions EVEN IF I have a mother (whose an MD, no less), who thinks I should "buck up" and get over it (which I find kind of insulting). ""just so I would'NT have wasted their time or that people thought that I was weak/had a low pain tolerance in wanting to see a doctor when nothing was wrong."
> Thanks,
> I needed a pep talk.
>
> It's hard because I've spent so long trying to maintain appearances, and I've done a pretty damn good job of it. It's only been more recently that I've began visualizing that I've tried to build up my life on a foundation that wasn't very stable to begin with. That means that I know/have accepted that I'll have to continue with some sort of therapy beyond my 10 free sessions, when I have a mother (whose an MD, no less), who thinks I should "buck up" and get over it (which I find kind of insulting).
>
> Its also hard for me because I found myself thinking: "if the citalopram/wellbutrin/whatever doesn't work, then I must be making this up, I'm not depressed I'm just lazy" or " I'm just wasting other people's time thinking there are things wrong with me."
> -->it probably means I really need ADs right now...
>
> When I was younger I recalled the same feeling when I would say that i was injured playing soccer and needed to see a trainer or a doctor. Of course I didn't want to be injured, but there was a part of me that wanted to just so I would have wasted their time or that people thought that I was weak/had a low pain tolerance in wanting to see a doctor when nothing was wrong.
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