Posted by sigismund on February 2, 2012, at 0:31:16
In reply to playing with fire?, posted by g_g_g_unit on February 1, 2012, at 6:28:30
>Part of me, in fact, actively hates her, out of the most crippled jealousy. I feel I want to cut her out of my life to spite her.
Yes. But you won't do that. What is more likely is that you will not act because of your (justified?) fears about your condition.
If you went you wouldn't have to expect anything in particular. It wouldn't have to be perfect to avoid being a failure. New country, new people, stuff outside your room, and this girl. You don't have to expect anything.
But hell. Life's a lost cause. Your condition? No doubt your condition sucks. But how will you feel by not going?
Not that you should. Sometimes, yes sometimes I think..... Well, life's a lost cause. We have statistics to prove it (in the history books, must be why I read them) This whole culture is full of f*ck*ng hope. There's none.
When I was your age I couldn't, that is for sure. But if you can, I'd go.
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