Posted by annierose on July 29, 2011, at 8:35:24
In reply to Re: first session back » annierose, posted by Daisym on July 28, 2011, at 12:58:50
Yes, that feeling of "one of many" runs strong in my life. Darn that big Italian family. Especially true when my mom was so overwhelmed with life in general, and then to 'attempt' to take care of a family, she shut completely down ... so if there were maybe only 1 or 2 kids ... maybe she could have handled being a mom to just a few.
Funny, I saw me canceling Tuesday's session as growth, even though I know it felt like a rebellious teenager. And in the past 8 (gulp) years, I have never canceled a session in anger before. Mind you, she didn't know I was canceling in anger. I calmly canceled - although I'm sure she read between the lines.
During Thursday's session, we both worked hard towards the connection that I long for when I'm with her. She reminded me that she isn't a robot and of course has feelings for me that don't turn off just because she is on vacation.
I smiled to myself when she says at the beginning of the session, "The past few months, you were making such progress towards trusting the relationship, trusting me and poof, it disappears when I went I return. What happened?" I shake my head and state the obvious, "You left me." Really ts ...figure this out.
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