Posted by sleepygirl2 on April 16, 2011, at 18:13:31
In reply to Re: Anyone with social anxiety » sleepygirl2, posted by wittgensteinz on April 16, 2011, at 13:22:48
I am reading some CBT stuff at the moment. I've always been familiar with it. I've managed, I think thus far to some degree, because I have been able to evaluate my thoughts. It's a little annoying really.
What I can't get past is the "it is all my fault, I'm inferior, no one could like me", and things like that. I am also absolutely not allowed to make any mistakes whatsoever.My mother was very critical too, often rejecting, hurtful, volatile. My father was also mostly absent or involved in fighting with my mother.
I have been painfully shy for as long as I can remember. Of course, an environment like that didn't help me to manage it, and it just got worse, just had to rely on avoidance when I could.I'll see if I can try to challenge the thoughts.
Even my dreams have people hating me in them.
I wish the world felt safer. Then there is the idea of making a lot of it more comfortable for me. Maybe it'll be a combo, managing anxiety, changing my lifestyle/environment to allow for my sensitivities and challenging those "god, I really and utterly suck" thoughts. Something's got to change. I am just too anxious, too often. I don't want to just rely on meds.
I don't think I'll ever like parties, small get togethers can be okI'm glad you're out from under the table. I used to hide behind trees. Thanks for sharing what you did. It is helpful, and I really appreciate it. :-)
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