Posted by ralphrost2 on July 12, 2010, at 19:18:43
Hi all,
I've been struggling with depression and anxiety for about 7 years now. I'm doing therapy for about 3 years, and recently stopped medication. I'm 26.
At this point, despite ordinary things in life are ok, I just feel I possibly won't be able to bear with loneliness and the memories of my recent past. Psychoanalysis just seemed to kill what was left of my self-esteem. I don't think I'm depressed, but being conscious of my own reality and losses seems too overwhelming. I really feel like... the things I used to think that were good in my personality only turned to be seen as defects caused by growing up in a very troubled family.
I experimented a point in life that nothing really bothered me and basically I didn't feel emotions (I was on ADs). But is it worth living like this? Do you have to give up on your personality and memories in order not to feel the pain?
I wonder maybe I should follow some spiritual path, to try to see my life in a different way.
Can anyone share some thoughts?
Thank you,
Ralph
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