Posted by violette on July 4, 2010, at 12:30:18
In reply to It occurs to me...., posted by Dinah on July 4, 2010, at 11:23:45
Dinah, it seems Emily and I already worked out our disagreements, but thanks for your concern for everyone.
There are a lot of triggers here for me--due to how it is managed and other things I already mentioned throughout different posts. It doesn't work well with my childhood abuse history. Especially that tip toeing around feeling that has been mentioned by several people besides me-and i didn't realize it at the time, but after looking up defenses and reading about passive agression, it occured to me having to so carefully word my phrases like "this is only my opinion", and worried about making generalizations, etc., and having to possibly word things to appease another is related to an abusive childhood enviornment where you could not be direct out of fear of upsetting a parent-and where actions and intent were often the opposite of spoken words which appear nice on the outside, but laced by harmful intent.
Thanks for mentioning DBT. I checked into it-and unfortunately, I am triggered by CBT therapy and it reminded me too much of that. A T I saw for 2 years tried to address my symptoms in similar ways-but it led to major panic attacks. To the point where I would start to panic on my way to her office.
DBT was designed to address the borderline construct, though I realize it can be used for all sorts of other emotinal regulation issues, and although I can relate, it just occurred to me I'm progressing to a state of full blown PTSD, which makes more sense why I can't do that type of therapy since it calls for a more customized therapy according to the individual.
Besides my past experience with therapy "methods" I have additional emotional triggers related to the whole CBT thing so it's just not good for me to use those sort of techniques.
Verloren already left, as did RNNY. I just don't find this to be a very supportive place-for many reasons, aside from medication and related questions. I've come across posts of people really crying for help, and just one person or no one answers, but when someone posts about H21A agonism and D3 receptors, will receive consirable responses.
You are very kind and supportive, always were. (BTW-I never found you boring!). I appreciate the diversity in thought as well, but i just wish this board would retain more people as supportive as you. Sometimes I think you idealize Dr. Bob.
It looks like you have someone else to talk to now-Christ-Empowered has started a new thread.
Yes, I am just too triggered by things here as a result of my background. Anyway, I feel a bit of closure now. Thanks and take care.
btw-I think my T would say addressing the situation as I did was more healthy than not.
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