Posted by brokenpuppet on June 14, 2010, at 19:39:19
In reply to terminated with T and unravelling, posted by deerock on June 14, 2010, at 14:25:22
hi deerock,
i'm not sure what to say to help.
what i got from your post (my interpretation) is that you seem conflicted. maybe a part of you wasn't ready to terminate with your T and that part is rebelling now. i say this because these inner conflicts are what's been happening for me since I decided I was going to terminate (which for me has been a long process, i keep asking for new sessions and only recently have finally decided on the final session date... which makes me feel - i wish i could write this in very small print - ashamed and desperate, like i can't let her go). but i think this is the best for me, i had to look at all the parts of my self and what they needed and reach a sort of compromise (very hard), and in the end some parts got a better deal than others...i guess what i'm trying to say is that termination is a very hard thing, maybe you needed more time to process it, and that shouldn't take away from your braveness to face it in the first place! whether you're ready now, or in 3 weeks or in 2 years that's totally up to you.
this is a quote from an article: 'the termination phase of therapy, once explicitly or implicitly entered into, might last for as much as half the entire treatment time' (http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/evil-deeds/200912/can-therapy-be-addictive-the-power-and-terror-termination?page=2) you might or might not find the whole article useful, but that quote is something i hung on to as it helped me take my time and try to be at peace with it.
I know that i'm not yet where you are, i haven't left therapy YET, so what i wrote might not be helpful to you. i will probably have my falling apart moments too, i don't know what will happen - yet.
i hope your T can help you with termination or whatever you decide to do. and look after the little rebel in you..!
poster:brokenpuppet
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