Posted by shelbyfude on May 25, 2010, at 19:01:45
In reply to Re: My therapist doesn't want to let me go...Help!, posted by brokenpuppet on May 25, 2010, at 15:21:42
Hmmmm....I do feel she cares, sometimes not so much.
She has never said that about commitment. She should know after 11 years of rarely missing a session that I am committed.
You know, I used to feel so scared that one day she would tell me it was time for me to leave. I dont feel that way anymore. I think I just want a break.
I relish the idea of not having to drive the hour there and hour back for awhile.
Maybe I dont trust her and that is an issue. Should I continue to see her until I do trust her? Or keep going to get over that? Tough questions and no easy answer. I wish I was more sure of myself. I even talked to her one time about how she always changes my mind when I mention leaving or cutting back and that it makes me angry. But,she reminded me, I was the one making decisions and that even though I say I am struggling financially, I keep giving her a check and coming each week. So when I told her I couldn't afford it for real, she left a message telling me we can work it out somehow and to come in anyway.
If I tell this to others, they say she is maybe doing it to keep her paycheck coming and that is what I think too sometimes. So, I dont trust her. Thanks for your help. I just feel like I
am 47 years old and not being allowed to just try living on my own.
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