Posted by TherapyGirl on July 3, 2009, at 18:32:40
In reply to Re: I think I'm done with T » TherapyGirl, posted by Daisym on July 2, 2009, at 22:37:12
I am angry. You may be right about a final session, but my best guess is that she wouldn't deal with even that well enough for it to be of any benefit to me. So I think I have to figure this out on my own. She really is very out of touch with herself and with me.
It's very sad and I was very hopeful that T, of all people, would be able to help me navigate a goodbye in a healthier way. She could have if she was herself. But it's just not going to happen.
One of the things she told me last night is that she's moving Jan. 1 or close to it. In my opinion, especially given her emotional state, she should have delayed the moving until AFTER she retires so that she could devote her energy to helping us all through this process. Instead, it continues to be all about her. I can't tell you how very different that is from her core personality. And she won't admit it. She keeps saying it's my filter. That may have been true when I was so depressed, but I've been much better these last couple of months. And I'm experiencing her ineffectiveness exactly the same way.
She also brought up last night that she knew my birthday would be difficult (it's 3 weeks after she leaves and the anniversary of my life falling apart this past January) and she thought it would be important for us to have contact. But it will be too soon for her to be back in the area, so we'll plan a phone call. I can't tell you how cared for I feel in response to that.
Thank you for being here in this awful place with me, Daisy. I really appreciate it and your wisdom.
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