Posted by obsidian on May 3, 2009, at 0:01:09
In reply to Re:What My T Said About Her Behavior » sassyfrancesca, posted by SLS on May 1, 2009, at 15:57:55
one of the things that has been so difficult in my life is dealing with the fact that my mother is very much like this
she is very limited in an emotional way
sometimes I am quite convinced that she is unable to think of me as a separate person
but sometimes...I get a glimmer, and I think that she can
I have become (out of necessity) sensitive to these sudden shifts, and I found that I really had to detach emotionally in a lot of ways, because it was too painful to find myself vulnerable and caught off guard
I find that as I interact with her I think of her as a psych patient in some ways, with a certain amount of objectivity hopefully at the fore, that prevents me from reacting to her out of anger and feeling hurt
I think I was about 12?? I don't know, maybe younger, and she decided, out of her own hurt and anger, that she would take down all of her children's pictures from the wall. At will, she could make you feel like you ceased to exist, and simultaneously like you were the worst person in the world.
...but still, she is my mother, and I love her for who she can be, as fragile as she is, but I stay at a safe distance
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