Posted by desolationrower on April 27, 2009, at 20:17:27
In reply to Re: my therapist is taking a new position » desolationrower, posted by garnet71 on April 25, 2009, at 13:28:12
i have no insurance (well some catastrophic thing that might cover something if i need 100k procedures) so thats not really the issue. and i don't have friends to go out with, finding them is the issue...
i don't think i'm worried about the therapeutic relationship not working for me. at least in an emotional 'worried' way. i looked at the psychologytoday site they have a lot of listing of people where they write a blurb of how they work and have a picture. there are lots of therapists around, finding a new one would not be hard, like finding na pdoc i like is.
I've never noticed anxiety getting better, so i'm not sure that shoudl be something on this therapist.
i think i'm more worried about my own judgments of thigns than of others.
i'm not sure waht it means to 'accept myself' or waht, its like ht eproblem is i don't expect social interactions to go well. part of it is me not enjoying it so its hard to think of the otehr person thinking differently.
i'ved not tried 'groups' because i think i'd really dislike it and the people involved; they're probably more socially awkward than normal, and get me even more dreading interactions. i went and met a guy who led an autism group and it was like he was congradulating me for knowing to shake his hand and basic things like that. and a group the first two weeks before i could get into the school clinic and it some girl tking about her lupus, and it was kind of like implied about me 'hm you seem ok why are you depressed?' and my cognitions are 'yeah you're right' because its only behvarioal/emotional stuff...
i did one dbt workbook, i mean i specifically said when is started working with this therapist didn't want any cbt, i already know about hwat cognititions should be, and techniques, and blah blah, i mean i'm quite introspective and had tried on my own psychological kind of stuff for years before i started getting professional help...
somehow, most of what i said was really about excuses for things or things iv'e told my therapist, not about picking one. but maybe knowing why i'm skeptical fo things is useful...thanks for the input i'm still confused.
-d/r
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