Posted by seldomseen on April 7, 2009, at 21:08:43
In reply to What does depression feel like?, posted by yellowbird01 on April 7, 2009, at 17:50:44
What an interesting question.
Depression for me feels like the world is painted battleship gray. There is no color, everything just blends into the horizon. All things monotone.
Depression is so so heavy. My body feels wet and weighted down. It's a constant feeling of the last surfacing before you go under for the last time.
Depression for me is grief. Not the intense acute grief of a sudden loss, but a relentless quiet grief that no one seems to understand.
I remember when I first started on Prozac when I was 30. At first it was *really* rough, like walking out into the sun after being in a cellar.
About 3 weeks into treatment things began to snap into focus. I started to see in color and taste food again. I remember I ate this cheap blueberry muffin from some coffee shop and thinking "man this is the best thing I have *ever* tasted.
Unfortunately for me, and I think most, depression relapses and remits. Even with the Prozac i still fall in to the pit, but it's not as deep and I don't stay in as long.
Seldom.
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