Posted by rskontos on April 7, 2009, at 0:34:04
In reply to Re: my therapist ruined my session » seldomseen, posted by raisinb on April 6, 2009, at 21:58:19
>>>My brain: Raisin, you're beating your head against a brick wall. You've always known she doesn't really care that much--why don't you value yourself a little higher than to stay in a relationship so unequal and rejecting. Isn't there a better therapy out there? Why am I selling myself so short? Is this a method of self-hatred or self-punishment, to try and get caring from someone who can't or won't give it? Is all my progress gearing me to the point where I can go find something better? Why don't I have the courage and the self-worth to take that step?>>>>
First of all raisin, the above is more about that internal mess-up dialogue we all have. It is the past rearing its ugly head.
I admit if my t said what yours did, I would probably get up and leave and never come back.
I think something else you said in your post to Seldom, really bothered me. It was about her crying. I don't think I would ever feel comfortable with my therapist crying. He is the professional. He needs to be beyond where I am and I don't get the sense she is really in the game.
Now granted babies take a toll especially in the beginning when sleep is a distant memory, but that is frankly her problem.
If she can't be a good therapist right now, she needs to not do harm and I think with the lack of consistency she is.
Please take care of you, tell her how you feel. She needs to be emotionally connected after 4 years, I mean how do you be someone's therapist that long and then make that statement.
I am glad she called but if she hadn't said what she did, she would not have needed to. Maybe she needs to think before she speaks.
Again, I hope I am not off base but she worries me for you. take care of yourself.
Sometimes I hate therapy you know.
rsk
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