Posted by raisinb on March 15, 2009, at 15:18:21
My therapist will be back in about three weeks. She left me a message a few weeks ago about how she was sorry she hadn't called sooner, she'd had a rough time but was on the mend, and that she was thinking about me a lot and "we're still on for April."
Well, I would've been transported with joy if she'd left that message a couple of weeks earlier. But by that point, I just said to myself, "hm. Yeah, so what? That's not gonna cut it" and forgot about it.
And now, after all these weeks, I'm all of a sudden incredibly angry at her. I REALLY do NOT want to go back in a few weeks. Only then who would I yell at? How would I process this anger?
I don't understand why I'm suddenly feeling this now, but I sure am angry about the whole thing. Spending all this time fantasizing about the most hurtful things to say to her. But of course, it's not ever gonna feel to her like it felt to me when she left. Screw her. I'm pretty sure I deserve better than this, and I'm wondering what I'm accomplishing by continuing to wait for her to come back.
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