Posted by FindingMyDesire on February 27, 2009, at 16:17:41
In reply to not ok and T doesn't care, posted by MusicLuv on February 27, 2009, at 12:57:34
Hi MusicLuv,
Last night I was in a very bad place and left a message for my T. I did not ask her to call me back. Then I hung up and wished I had. I don't know how your phone understandings work, but with mine - I need to say I want/need her to call me back or she won't. This allows me to set up a bad situation where I'm convinced she doesn't care about me - cause if she did she would *know* that I really need her to call me. Then I feel hurt (and angry) and sometimes even call her to tell her I'm OK so not to worry. For me, and I emphasize that this is my experience, it's simply not true. And therefore I short-change myself. I lose the opportunity for connection.It sounds like you are really in pain. Your T cares about you very, very much I'm positive. Please let her know (again) that you need her. I know you already did, but the text message does not let her know what you really need, right? And in a text message it seems like it would be hard to expect her to read between the lines, although I can TOTALLY understand why you would want her to.
Hope it's OK to be sharing my experience. I hope only that it makes you feel less alone. I'm relying on this board today to not feel so alone.
Not sure what time you posted, but I just entered a chat room if you are around. It's 2:15 PM Pacific time here... I'll be checking in and out for the next couple of hours.
FMD
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