Posted by SLS on February 12, 2009, at 8:03:03
In reply to Re: Anyone else think about it this way? *may trigger*, posted by Tabitha on February 12, 2009, at 0:05:17
I know it is trite to say, but life is a terminal condition.
It is a matter of choice, I believe, as to which condition to romance - life or death.
I have gone through the hell of bipolar depression for each moment of every day over a span of decades. The main thing that kept me going is that I had hope that I would eventually be well, and I chose to make it a lifetime war to conquer depression. I was smart enough to look around and see what my life could be without depression - something to look forward to. Fierceness helps. I feel like a warrior. Even so, a warrior, like anyone who has ever lived, has his breaking point, beyond which there is nothing left to fight with. But this is usually only a temporary state with depression, and it can pass, almost by itself.
Depression is a liar. It distorts your perceptions and conclusions regarding the world around you. Impusle actions - that is what the depression is counting on. For the moment, you might not FEEL that there is anything to live for. But somewhere deep inside, you probably KNOW that there are things worth living for.
The human drive for survival is strong. Listen to it. It will give you the strength to get through this aweful time. Rest when you must. Remove yourself from the battle, but don't give up the war.
I hope I never reach the point of resignation that depression is all that there is for me, and that all that I am is depression, even though this is what it often feels like. The human spirit is bigger than depression, especially when it is supported by other human spirits.
- Scott
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