Posted by Little Soul on December 31, 2008, at 9:30:37
In reply to Re: Letting go of family and home » workinprogress, posted by Partlycloudy on December 30, 2008, at 7:05:01
PC - I've just finished reading this thread and am close to crying. I can feel your pain because you are writing my story. The giving up of it all, the silence from family of origin - the excruciating silience, the lack of appetite, the helpful husband, and on and on. I, as you, want so desperately to have that picket fence family but am coming slowly to realize that may not ever be.
I want to say to you that I am sorry for your pain and for your sadness. I know it's magnified by this time of year when all you see anywhere is how happy we should be with family....ba...humbug! I relate to the sofa thing totally. When I'm laying there, I ntoice that I just live minute to minute ,and say to myself, "okay, now I got through this minute and now this one and this one". I can tell you that I have many hours during some days that I feel lifted by my family (husband and adult daughter). They do so much for me and try so hard, so I try to put all that in perspective. I say to myself, "just look at the love in this world, it IS possible and it is possible that I'm loveable too". So in the darkest of times, when I can't get ahold of my T or my three emergency phone numbers I can rely on that as solace.
Please, please know that you don't have to beat yourself up over this because it only gets worse, at least it does when I do that. And the eating thing - mashed potatoes, bananas, and yogart are on my list of favs. Anything mushy, no chewing or crunching please. I take a multi-vitamin and dring lots of water. BTW, which protein drink suits you? I haven't found one that doesn't taste like liquid vitamins.
So my heart goes out to you - really, really! I want you to know I hear you. Take care of yourself and totally be kind to yourself even when you don't want to - no "shoulds" here. Stay in touch. As a newbie, I can already see the outpouring of comfort on this board.
Take care,
Little Soul
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