Posted by rskontos on December 7, 2008, at 20:11:56
In reply to Re: Dissoc disorders, not easy, posted by lucie lu on December 7, 2008, at 16:23:14
Muffled you know what and who I am. I often rail at my t about my dx. But I do have huge stretches of lost time. I have lost days, weeks. I have awaken from a fugue stretch, amnesia if you will, and not remember people, or being in a room with people I did not remember ever coming into contact with. It is so upsetting to say the least. And why I never sought help, or wondered why this happened still baffles me. I just I just, tried to forget it happening. I have bought things and not remember buying them.
Sometimes it is simple things. Like we get Netflix. We get movies in the mail, that no one in the house ordered. I did not remember ordering them.
I don't want to say more because, I am feeling a little uneasy with this.
I will say that my p-doc did give me a DID dx. I don't like it. Sometimes I feel that there is a stigma attached to this dx. Probably it is my stigma I am attaching. I do run across posts that make me think that, so I don't post. But then again, I am sometimes very, I don't the word, easily triggered. So again I just try to lurk.
I just wanted to post to say I understand. All too well.
But I think your t is good with yours. lately I question mine. So tomorrow I am going to tell him how i feel.
He sometimes treats it ok so you dissociate, it is just a way of coping. Now lets move on. Maybe that is better.
I don't know.
I am sorry so you feel so bad. I often worry I am a bad mom too.
I often feel so disconnected.
But mine are 20, she is ok doing well, the other is 16, he is doing well. So maybe I am doing ok afterall.
again so sorry you feel bad.
And I am sorry if I made anyone else feel bad.
I don't mean to ever be uncivil or put anyone down.
rsk
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