Posted by antigua3 on December 3, 2008, at 6:51:20
I hesitate to write this because I feel like I'm being disloyal to my T. But... I'm concerned.
The last couple of weeks my T has been really scatterbrained. She has called me up to 3 times the day before my appt to verify the appt time, and she seems to have forgotten that we've already verified it. We do usually speak the day before to verify the time because it tends to vary, but this is worrying me. Last night, on the second phone call, after which we had already confirmed, she said something like, "You're coming here, right?" I was taken aback, and worried, because we never meet anywhere else.
I mentioned somewhere else that her beloved dog died, so that could account for some of this. But after last night, my alarm has gone off. I am going to assume it's grief and try to talk to her today, but she didn't act this way when something much more major occurred in her life earlier in our "career" together.
It's fearful to think that my rock isn't as stable as she used to be, or as much as I need her. I do tend to feel like I'm taking care of her, which is a pattern w/my mother.
In contrast, my pdoc has made great strides recently in solidifying our relationship. He has now made it very clear that he is there if I need him, even if it's on the weekend, etc. This is a big move for us and I appreciate his support. I'm going through some med changes that are much more difficult than I expected (or he expected either--where's Poet? He needs a cyberslap for saying there would be "no" withdrawal)
So, while I'm glad about my pdoc, I'm really worried about my T. Anyone ever had something like this happen to them?
antigua
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