Posted by LadyBug on November 2, 2008, at 1:05:15
In reply to Re: My latest decision about T~Long~ » LadyBug, posted by happyflower on November 1, 2008, at 19:59:04
happyflower~
your post brings me to tears...........thank you for your support. I'm a little concerned for the holidays as well. My dumb husband didn't pay on our storage unit after I moved out and so I lost all my stuff that was in it, among which was all my Christmas stuff. After 25 years I had quite the collection. I lost it all!!! It brings me to tears when I think of it. I had some amazing things, and they were nice! I hate him!!!!!!!!!I wish we lived closer, I'd love to meet once a week for coffee or something. I have friends but when we get together it's such an effort for me but I have fun when I go.
My T told me I could come in on Tuesday next week at my "old" time. Like she's saved it for me??? I liked what you said about having a scab put over the hole we have inside while we are in therapy. It's a good way to put it. I must admit, my hole was huge when I started therapy, it go much better in time, but it's still there, sometimes I feel it and it hurts.
I don't have anyone to be there for me when I get done on Tues. Both my girls will be at work. They don't know I'm going, they would blow a gasket because they hate my T!!!!!!!!!!!!! So I can't tell them I'm going to see her. I don't have much time left to think of all I want to say. I may go back and see her a few times before her last date of seeing patients. It depends on how it goes. I've gone through the grieving of losing her.But I didn't think I'd ever hate her like I do.............it's weird.
I loved her for probably 9 of the 11 years, and then when the baby was born in March this year, she did what she did, I hated her. I have a lot to sort out. My dreams indicate that as I've had nothing but awful dreams this past week about my life. Especially dreams of my husband cheating on me. I wish they would go away and I wish he would go away except he's in jail so he is away.
Last night I did actually have a dream that I met with my t and she told me I could come and hang out at her house after she retires.........ya that's a dream alright!!!Hugs
Ldbg
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