Posted by LadyBug on November 1, 2008, at 18:30:37
In reply to Re: My latest decision about T~Long~ » LadyBug, posted by happyflower on November 1, 2008, at 16:41:59
happyflower~
thanks for bringing up some good points. I did tell her she hurt me just not as many times as I should have because I took a long break! She didn't acknowledge hurting me so it will be interesting if she brings it up. I plan to tell her what she said was the worst thing she could have said to me at the time. I'm sure she still won't get it, she doesn't know how it feels to lose a grandchild or a spouse.I will have to compose some thoughts on how I would like to see it end..............of course I hope it ends positively. If she hurts me some more, I'll make her miserable. I won't do therapy any longer with her. This will be about my future or letting go of the power she had over me. I let it go. And I could write a book of the negative effects I believe therapy had over me for the most part. There were some good things, but mostly I believe the process is da** hard.
I think the hardest part of therapy for me is the intense feelings of love I felt for her and each time I left her office I felt like I was being abandoned. I had severe attachment issues, she lead me into needing her and depending on her but with limits. It's unrealistic in therapy to need your T and they aren't available to you when you *want* them to be. I don't know.
LadyBug
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