Posted by sassyfrancesca on October 29, 2008, at 8:27:53
In a nutshell, I occasionally e-mail my t (for the past 4 years)...Last night he told me he didn't want me to anymore, because "others read his e-mail." I asked who "others" were....he said...his wife, because she does the bills online, and he has "no secrets."
That is delusion (LOL)....he has a ton of secrets with his behavior with me....but I won't go there now.
I told him that being alone (after 31 years of abuse) is right next to death. He wanted to know my secret of coping with that; I told him...I simply breathe.
I sat there in pain, sadness and anger. I needed to tell him how that felt, but couldn't.
I will tell him next week; I have learned in life to have no expectations that my needs will be met (never feeling sorry for myself), and that he just affirmed it again......
He told me that he knew my e-mails were a way to stay connected, etc.......I think that was insensitive and cruel, and I intend to tell him.
In a few months I will have to tell him I cannot pay him anymore; ain't life fun??!!
Love, Sassy
P.S. Just needed to vent, and thank you for listening.
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