Posted by antigua3 on October 22, 2008, at 10:58:39
In reply to therapy making me doubt myself, posted by wishingstar on October 21, 2008, at 17:33:54
Yes, I doubt myself all the time. But sometimes, I know better than my pdoc or T does. That's when I know I'm relying on my core strength and not on irrational beliefs I've accrued over the years (lots of them!). I can just feel the difference, when I know it's right. So, from that point of view it sounds like you made a healthy decision.
I can kind of see why your T wants you to go back one more time. It can make all the difference in the world sometimes to have that last session. (I can't tell you how many "last" sessions I've had, and ended up returning because I had misconstrued or manipulated the situation to the point where I had irrationally justified it.)
In your mind, you may not see it as "unfinished business" because you've closed the door on it. While it may be the right decision, consider going back. And if you go back, your T will let up on you and you can get back to business. Doesn't seem fair that you'd have to pay for it!
Maybe just give into this one to find out absolutely that you are right.
Sometimes therapy is about deconstructing before you can construct a stronger self. But I believe we have to hold on to the parts that we believe are healthy or strong, unless we learn otherwise. And in the end, we are the best judge of ourselves, although we do pay these people to help sort it all out.
Sorry this is rambling. I understand the pdoc didn't call back (I hate that), but if you try again and she doesn't call back, your T has to deal with that, and explain why this is really important. She's not making that clear enough for you to understand.
Hold your head high!
antigua
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