Posted by seldomseen on October 21, 2008, at 6:08:04
In reply to Re: Thanks for sharing... » stellabystarlight, posted by Morgan79 on October 20, 2008, at 19:23:33
First I would like to add my welcome to babble. I've certainly received a lot of support here. It's also a great place to vent! I just have a couple of thoughts about your situation.
"What was I thinking when we were playing house? I should have known he would lose everything, but that wouldn't matter to me. But he would resent me in the end. He says he wouldn't, but I know he would. It would be natural, he spent years in getting advanced degrees so I can take it all away?"
You are not taking anything away from this man at all. If there are ramifications from his actions YOU did not cause it. He willingly and with advanced knowledge of the potential consequences of his actions entered into a relationship with you. That was HIS choice.
"I don't know what to think. My mind is not clear, and I don't trust anyone anymore. I don't even want to be a t anymore. My goal in life was to help children who are "at risk." I can't even help myself, so how can I help children?"
I understand your crisis of confidence here, but would like to point out that you can and already are protecting yourself. You got out of the situation to give yourself time to think and regroup. You're helping yourself a lot.
It's easy to blame yourself for this entire mess, but, to be totally honest, he is much more culpable than you. Way way more.
I think the primary thing that you need to be focused on now is healing your broken heart.
Take care
Seldom
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